Time Goes Marching On....

I don't know what has really happened here. It is all a confusing blur that makes up the reality that I know. It has all been happening slowly, but all these things have converged now in a sudden jerk to the reality that I thought I knew.

This is one of those times for me where everything shifts and I am left to re-adjust. To sum up the many mini changes I have been going through I give you this entry. Probably the biggest shift has to do with the "loss" of my closest friends. Adam is going away for basic training for 5 months, John and Nathan T are in college down in Georgia, Curtis is always busy with school or work, Abby is in college and living in Delaware. These people have been around for most of my life up to this point and are no longer around so much. This wouldn't be so much of a problem if I could just get some new friends, but that hasn't been so easy. Not many people have the patience to get to know me like these friends have. other changes are going to college, a brand new environment for me, being basically bankrupt if it weren't for my parents (I have truly failed to hold on to the oath I made to myself not to rely on my parents through my college years, I know, I know, but it seemed like a doable goal before...) tons of computer woes, car problems, and a generic feeling of being not very useful.

This is most likely the product of a bout of depression, but it had any number of triggers. Please pray that I will rely on God to save me from the troubles of this world. Satan has been working away at me I feel that I am beginning to break down.

ughhh......